I've been thinking of ways to get myself more on track as well as make sure I'm completing tasks that you are asking me to complete. I want to make sure I'm pleasing you and feel I'm failing with the daily tasks we had initially put in place.
After reading some Blogs about online D/s relationships, I thought that we might want to consider implementing something like the following: Every morning I message you the following: How I'm feeling physically What my mood is What I plan to wear ( work out clothes or something else) Choice of Pantie picture sent for you to view and choose if I'm wearing something outside of work out clothes *If choice of Panties are chosen, A pic wearing them sent to you - either your choice of view or mine, you can decide daily See if you have any tasks for that given day to complete By Midnight End of Day : At least one Journal entry posted Report of any task given - Either provide you with info if it was to be completed by end of day or an update as to where I'm at. I also think to make sure I stay on track , we should discuss punishments if these are not done.. Consequences to not completing any of these will help me remember to complete them for you .. These are just thoughts or suggestions to help me be a better sub to you .. Ultimately my goal is to be the best I can be and make you very happy / proud of me.. Let me know what you think... Lovin on you Daddy Again I find myself slacking on adding journal entries. I'll have to get better about it so I can get back on track as I do enjoy writing for you . I'm a bit concerned about this coming weekends weather forecast and the trip planned to the beach. Hubby is already saying we need to re-evaluate the plans if it's going to be rainy all weekend when the timeshare is already paid for and booked.. My thought is, why not just go and enjoy some time with the kids in a different environment. If I stay home and is housebound with all of 'em I think I'll go postal and you might see me on the evening news babbling in the corner. I'm really not liking the idea of being away from you .. I do hope you will have signal and we can still stay in touch.. Since we discussed Lingerie Yesterday, I thought I'd look up a couple of pieces to see if you like them and get your thoughts.. There are alot more styles I like, but off of our discussion I chose ones I thought you would enjoy.. Main goal is to be further down my weight loss path so I don't feel like a over bloated whale when I see you .. Back in January, I took an online test to see what type of sexual deviant I was. Recently I've been wondering if my likes/ dislikes have changed any with us playing and experimenting with new D/s things such as edging and Orgasm on command. I decided I'd take the test again compare the findings with my January test to see what things have changed.. I'm not surprised to see that the Dominant scores have goen down in some areas and the Submissive have gone up. Here are both my January and August scores. January 2016 August 2016 Here is a simple breakdown of today's test:
== Results from bdsmtest.org == 89% Submissive 87% Rope bunny 87% Voyeur 86% Switch 80% Masochist 74% Experimentalist 72% Primal (Prey) 71% Brat 66% Exhibitionist 50% Degradee 48% Sadist 48% Slave 47% Dominant 42% Rigger 40% Primal (Hunter) 39% Master/Mistress 31% Non-monogamist 29% Vanilla 25% Girl/Boy 17% Brat tamer 15% Owner 14% Daddy/Mommy 13% Degrader 13% Pet 7% Ageplayer I would love for you to take the test and share it with me as well and ask questions about my results so we can explore eachothers needs / wants more. To take the test go to https://bdsmtest.org/ I know I've slacked on writing in my journal for you , and I promise I will be better about it. It would help if at times , not all the time, you gave me a subject that you would like me to write on.
Today was a pretty quiet day. I spent the afternoon with the Boy doing errands and taking him to lunch. It was nice because when I get him out of the house, he tends to talk more and open up. So, we were able to talk about school and other things without any distractions. I enjoyed it.. I just wish this damn headache would finally go away .. Unfortunately I don't see it going away until the weather clears up. Something I'd like to have more of are tasks given to me. I especially like being asked for pictures that I have to take and send to you. I love knowing you are looking at my pictures and loving that I took it just for you. I would also like tasks that I have to complete and write about in this journal with a deadline. Bottom line is, I enjoy knowing I'm completing something you ask me to do and that is pleasing you. Today's positive is I didn't freak out in the MRI machine .. I managed to get through it although I had wished you were there with me... Now, tomorrow, we will hopefully learn whats going on and have a plan of action in place to move forward. I really don't like feeling needy and I definitely do not like asking for help because it makes me feel weak..
As for my desire... I have been thinking a lot about things I would love to try with you when we meet face to face... For one, forced orgasms, you tying me up and playing with me making me orgasm for you on your command... As well as you making me edge while you are playing with me ordering me to hold my orgasm ... I really do enjoy giving you control of my orgasms.. I think in person it would be very enjoyable to test how far we can take it.. I've asked to be edged until I can't hold it any more and have really craved that for many years however, I have not found someone that would go that extra step and really make me hold my orgasm. I'd love to experience these with you plus so many other things ... Love you Daddy XoX ~ Your Babygirl |
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