Yesterday , coming down from the emotional and sexual stimulation with no release affected me more than I ever imagined it would . It was, like coming off an amazing high and feeling completely lost when the sensation of being euphoric was no longer with you. This confused me a bit and I needed to take some time to think through this to understand why I was feeling that way.
Once I got my bearings together and worked through my feelings, I anticipated today , wanting so badly to be with you. Having you make me edge and use my bullet throughout the day just made my anticipation build and heightened my need for you to consume my thoughts and my body, making them YOURS. You not only made me cum so much I couldn't even form words, you touched a part of my being that hasn't been touched that way in quite some time.. You my dear have really blown me away with this side of you that I had not seen in the 2 or so years we have been friends. You truly satisfy more of my needs and wants than I could ever imagine being met.. I am love drunk.. and I want more .. I seriously cannot express the love I feel for you .. So Enjoying this journey with you by my side.. ~ YOUR babygirl XoX Edging for you today and having to use the toy every 10 minutes for 3 minutes and when you required me to used it , not only sent me over the top with sexual stimulation , it also sent me into an emotion roller coaster. I've given you so much control, which, as we both know is really out of my comfort zone and not my initial nature as I've always played the strong bad ass girl even though I had this need to have a man want to take care of me and nurture me. The need to please you is where my mind always ended up even when I worked through a plethora of emotions from being Defiant, wanting to cry because my emotional state was at a point of ecstasy then I was deprived, to wanting to be angry. I always ended up in the same emotional place which was that my need to please you was greater than anything else I was feeling today. Even though I feel like I can explode like the image below, the idea of cumming without you made me wanna cry again and I couldn't.. I would rather hold off and be with you. At this point - with the pent up state I'm in , the only desire I have is you.. Your hands on my body , your lips on my lips, your cock buried deep inside my pussy. I cannot seem to get enough of you and I crave to hear you say those 2 little words we both know sends shivers of delight through my body....
~I'M ALL YOURS, HEART BODY AND SOUL~ Your babgirl This is an image of the roses I took pictures of in a rose garden in Idaho. As I'm sure you have noticed, I love taking pictures, no matter what world I'm in . It's one of my passions and I feel a picture can say so many things ..
This picture reminded me of you and I today. You making me edge to where I was partially blossomed like the bloom on the right, a bit open but still so much more beauty to come. As we played on Skype and you told me to edge again , I was like the back left blossom , blossom almost open but holding back waiting for you.. Then, when we got you in voice, after begging for you to allow me to cum , I released cumming so hard I shivered with delight over and over again until I was " fully blossomed" (rose which is front left) and completely satisfied. You make me feel beautiful like this rose. Something that is admired, adored and cherished with unconditional love. My desire is to want to make love to you, to let you feel my love for you envelope your body as we are one for that moment. Eyes locked, soft whispers in each others ears as our bodies move in unison with one another. I want to look deep in your eyes as you cum deep inside of me and see the pleasure on your face as you release. I do hope we can work to make that happen. I desire it so deeply that it makes me ache.. XoX - Your baby girl This Song made me think of you today .. <click me > Today we are heading home.. Kind of a bitter sweet thing. My parents are not getting any younger and really wish I lived closer to spend more time with them. But, the trip was great- We all enjoyed spending time with everyone and I loved that the kids got to see their cousins which they haven't seen since they were 2 and 3 years old. All in all, the trip was a huge success and I cannot wait to go back again. I'm hoping I can do it every other year. Song for today as I flew outta Boise.. Take a listen.. Big Jet Plane
I've really been thinking of my desires since I read the article about Edging and orgasm control. I really do enjoy it so very much and would love to explore more with you such as spanking and pleasurable pain. We should discuss where we should start and also what other "kinks" you have in mind.. I want to please you beyond your expectations.. Lovin you Daddy .. XoX ~Your babygirl My positive was that I got to spend my Father's 70th birthday with him. Although it was a low key day for the most part until dinner in the evening. I really enjoyed being here for his B-day and having the kids with me so they can spend time with all their "Idaho" family. It's starting to sink in that I'm leaving on Saturday and It's quite bitter sweet.. I want to be close to my family, but do have my life in Florida.. I'm hoping I can come back to visit Idaho more frequently..
My Desire is that I want to get back on track with eating better and exercising when I get back to FL. You had mentioned a while ago you would keep on my about going to the gym, would you still be willing to do that ? I want to go M,W,F and if I can make it on a Saturday that will be a bonus. I'd also like to get my walking back up to 4 miles 4-5 times a week. Ultimately my goal is to be healthy and lose weight. I'm really tired of being heavy.. Thinking of you always Daddy - XoX ~Your Baby girl |
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