Today I'm happy for a few things today.. That the busy few weeks are over and I can now relax. And, that I got to see you on Cam today... I really hope now that things will be getting back to normal schedule that we can make it a regular occurrence, talking on cam.. I love seeing your facial expressions as we talk.. And I promise the more we do it the more comfortable I will get with it and will most likely even smile more.... Maybe ;)
A couple of things.. I am thinking I might want to explore my bi-curious side more.. I'm not sure how to go about it as I do not have anyone locally that I am even remotely attracted to. And for me , as you already know, it's more about personality and us "clicking" that anything else. I'm not one to just jump in bed with a stranger either.. I'd have to feel very comfortable with them and the situation. So, if you have any ideas -- Ideas how I can put myself out there and if something happens organically .. Great.. If not , OK great too.. I'm really not one to go out on the prowl just to search for a piece of ass. I've never been like that.. The porn today , what turned me on the most was her dripping wet pussy... That her lips were so engorged, dripping and all I was thinking about was laying under her and sucking that wetness off her lips while you watched. A good ass licking is nice, but that wasn't the erotic part in the video for me, her enjoyment and her pussy showing how much she enjoyed it was what turned me on.. ( starting to throb just thinking about it honestly) Today's positive is that it's 9 pm CST and I've not passed out now.. The cold medicine I'm taking to relieve the head congestion is making me feel drunk and loopy.. ( more than normal so don't say what else is new?) It's been a long day , but we got alot done and are very excited about the event which starts tomorrow night at 530pm CST.
Since my head is foggy and I feel loopy today. I figured I'd answer some canned " 25 things about " questions. Question 1: Do you have any pets ? 3 Furry ones and a couple Humanoid ones which I'm not allowed to cage due to Child abuse laws in our country . Question 2: Name three things that are physically close to you? My phone which you cannot pry from my hands even after death.. ( too much evidence in that fucker) , Tissues cause I cant' stop sneezing and tablet for my " to do " lists so I don't forget shit.. Question 3: What’s the weather like right now ? Where? In my pants ? I'd say very wet with a chance of a shower.. Questions 4: Do you drive ? If so, have you crashed? Yes and Yes Question 5: What time did you wake up this morning ? 3:30am Question 6: When was the last time you showered ? 3:45am Question 7: What was the last movie that you saw ? Bad Mom's... I now don't feel so isolated Question 8: What does you last text message say? " Thanks" I'm so exciting .... Question 9: What is your ringtone ? I keep my phone on silent Question 10: Have you ever been to a different country? Mexico Question 11: Do you like sushi?Yes Had it Wednesday night for Dinner Question 12: Where do you buy your groceries? Winn Dixie or Publix Question 13: Have you ever taken any medication to help you fall asleep faster? Yes Question 14: How many siblings do you have ? 4 Question 15: Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop? Laptop ( odd question , maybe it should be reworded , What type of online device do you watch Porn?) Question 16: How old will you be turning on your next birthday? I stopped counting and have decided I'm going to start count backwards. Question 17: Do you wear contacts or glasses ? Glasses Question 18: Do you colour your hair ?Yes Red Question 19: Tell me something you are planing to do today: touch myself and think of you (OK maybe you knew that ) Question 20: When was the last time you cried? Pleading the Fifth Question 21: What is your perfect pizza topping? Depends on my mood.. I like Margarita Pizza Question 22: Which do you prefer, hamburger or cheeseburger ? Cheeseburger Question 23: Have you ever had an all-nighter ? Me ??? Noooooooooooo *snickers* Question 24: What is your eye colour ? Bluish grey Question 25: Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke? Hell yes.. and they both taste better with Rum. Sometimes I have a very hard time understanding myself. Why I get very down and feel very vulnerable when it comes to us. I worry when I get like this, I'm going to push you away or you will think I'm a total nut. When you are not near or I can't feel "connected" to you I feel a void. I worry when I get like that I'm losing you. Bottom line is , I don't like feeling vulnerable.. And, I do feel vulnerable because I know I've given so much of me to you. It's easier to keep my heart protected , but with you I've not been able to do that and feel totally exposed. Please be patient and try to
Back to the Daily grind.. Made better time driving than expected. It only took 2 and a half hours to get back. It was great hearing your voice today as well. I am really missing it and can't wait to get back into a normal weekly routine next Monday when I can hear you more frequently now that your work schedule is back to the normal school year hours . I blew off SL and decided to go watch some episodes of Stranger Things. I do think you would love that series and you should consider watching it.
Exploring more about Online D/s relationships, I've been wondering if we need to discuss our relationship and possibly having more rules in place or a contract. Do you feel our loosely based agreement works for us both? Here is an article I was reading, let me know what you think. https://bdsmcontracts.org/long-distance-bdsm-relationships/ At the end of the day , I want to make sure we are both being satisfied with our agreement and our relationship. I love you - Woke up to a rainy overcast morning. So the day started out slow and low key. It's kinda a bitter sweet day.. A part of me wants to be home already - I've not been sleeping well here at all, which means my body hurts from all the tossing and turning. Then another part is bummed that vacation is almost over and I'm really not looking forward to the fact that I'm only home on Wednesday before heading to Nashville. Quite honestly, I'm not looking forward to being in Nashville for work... But it is what it is...
I did get to go body surfing in the Atlantic with Ian today, when the weather broke , it was a beautiful afternoon.. I spent all afternoon either in the ocean or on a lounge chair soaking up the sun. It was nice and very relaxing - a much needed recharge.. I'm hoping all the sun wore my ass out enough to knock me out so I sleep well.. Tomorrow will be busy with packing it up and getting home. I'm really hoping I can hear your voice tomorrow, I really do miss you a ton and the thought of possibly not being able to hear you for another week is heart wrenching... Love n Miss you Daddy - |
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